He hates every word that spills out of his mouth, like the dam he built and fortified just breaks all of a sudden, without warning. Uraraka, and really any of their classmates, are among the few Katsuki would ever allow to see him like this - vulnerable, unstable, and...in his eyes, weak. It's just, he can normally fight back against the usual threat, even mind control and someone trying to puppet his body around. That sort of thing he thought he could handle, because his will is so strong. He expected to be able to win against something like that because, well...he was used to what their world could throw at them. His expectations were thrown off entirely, and there was no way to do ANYTHING. Because his mind DID NOT EXIST under the Green Knight's control.
Katsuki is strong, he's brave and he's also...just a kid.
He's just a kid, and he got scared. He got scared and he hates that. He hates how he was forced to realize just how dangerous he is. How dangerous his quirk can be - the same one that he's so unbelievably proud of, that has helped him time and time again...the quirk that's aided him to coming so, so close to achieving his dreams. The same quirk that saved his Hero - the same one he helped end. That realization was so profound, and so horrifying, that he's just at a loss for how to even vocalize it. How anyone could look at him and still have anything positive to say. He would understand if they were upset, scared, if they blamed him even a little. He should have been better, he should have been stronger, but he wasn't. He wasn't and he deserves to be blamed. He is not, should not, be above consequence.
"Why--" the words die in his throat. The moment Uraraka holds him, he freezes up and goes quiet, arms raising up on reflex, but stopping, hesitating, unsure of what action to take. Shove her off? No, they've come too far for that. Hang by his sides? It's tempting, but he needs this. He actually needs this, and honestly? She's the best one to comfort him, perhaps the only one he would actually accept in this way, too.
So after inhaling sharply, and exhaling shakily, Katsuki's fingers curl and tighten around Uraraka's smaller frame and grip tightly into her clothes. His teeth grit together, eyes squeezed shut. The stupid, stubborn, assholeish side of him wants to deny that he needs help - he can stand on his own just fine - but that'd be a lie. Or at least a half truth...and Katsuki hates to lie. He does need help. He does need to be saved.
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Date: 2024-09-13 11:29 pm (UTC)Katsuki is strong, he's brave and he's also...just a kid.
He's just a kid, and he got scared. He got scared and he hates that. He hates how he was forced to realize just how dangerous he is. How dangerous his quirk can be - the same one that he's so unbelievably proud of, that has helped him time and time again...the quirk that's aided him to coming so, so close to achieving his dreams. The same quirk that saved his Hero - the same one he helped end. That realization was so profound, and so horrifying, that he's just at a loss for how to even vocalize it. How anyone could look at him and still have anything positive to say. He would understand if they were upset, scared, if they blamed him even a little. He should have been better, he should have been stronger, but he wasn't. He wasn't and he deserves to be blamed. He is not, should not, be above consequence.
"Why--" the words die in his throat. The moment Uraraka holds him, he freezes up and goes quiet, arms raising up on reflex, but stopping, hesitating, unsure of what action to take. Shove her off? No, they've come too far for that. Hang by his sides? It's tempting, but he needs this. He actually needs this, and honestly? She's the best one to comfort him, perhaps the only one he would actually accept in this way, too.
So after inhaling sharply, and exhaling shakily, Katsuki's fingers curl and tighten around Uraraka's smaller frame and grip tightly into her clothes. His teeth grit together, eyes squeezed shut. The stupid, stubborn, assholeish side of him wants to deny that he needs help - he can stand on his own just fine - but that'd be a lie. Or at least a half truth...and Katsuki hates to lie. He does need help. He does need to be saved.
Not by a Hero, but by a friend he trusts.