As Bakugou lets it out, about what the Green Knight did to him, what he was made to do, how whoever it was dancing to the Knight's tune categorically was not him, and how much he seems to loathe himself for what he was made to do, Ochaco's heart breaks. She's always thought of him as strong, and he is. He survived being kidnapped by the League of Villains, was right there when All For One made his public return, a man so overwhelmingly evil just his presence left the rest of them utterly paralyzed with fear. He's a Hero who jumps heedlessly into danger and has been fighting at the front lines as Japan's society collapses...and he's breaking under the sheer weight of how badly the Green Knight violated him. Of course she knew that, on some level, knew what had happened to him and that it must have effected him, but she wasn't prepared for the way he lashes out at her, the others, and himself most of all. For not being strong enough to stop the Knight.
He genuinely can't comprehend why they don't all hate him for it, because he clearly hates himself. So moves towards him again...and hugs him. She just wraps her arms around him and holds him close to let him know.
"None of us hate you, Bakugou-kun. Of course we don't. We just want to help you be able to stand back up again. You can rely on us. You can rely on me. Please...please don't keep these feelings inside. They'll just tear you up." Her own voice is breaking a bit.
He hates every word that spills out of his mouth, like the dam he built and fortified just breaks all of a sudden, without warning. Uraraka, and really any of their classmates, are among the few Katsuki would ever allow to see him like this - vulnerable, unstable, and...in his eyes, weak. It's just, he can normally fight back against the usual threat, even mind control and someone trying to puppet his body around. That sort of thing he thought he could handle, because his will is so strong. He expected to be able to win against something like that because, well...he was used to what their world could throw at them. His expectations were thrown off entirely, and there was no way to do ANYTHING. Because his mind DID NOT EXIST under the Green Knight's control.
Katsuki is strong, he's brave and he's also...just a kid.
He's just a kid, and he got scared. He got scared and he hates that. He hates how he was forced to realize just how dangerous he is. How dangerous his quirk can be - the same one that he's so unbelievably proud of, that has helped him time and time again...the quirk that's aided him to coming so, so close to achieving his dreams. The same quirk that saved his Hero - the same one he helped end. That realization was so profound, and so horrifying, that he's just at a loss for how to even vocalize it. How anyone could look at him and still have anything positive to say. He would understand if they were upset, scared, if they blamed him even a little. He should have been better, he should have been stronger, but he wasn't. He wasn't and he deserves to be blamed. He is not, should not, be above consequence.
"Why--" the words die in his throat. The moment Uraraka holds him, he freezes up and goes quiet, arms raising up on reflex, but stopping, hesitating, unsure of what action to take. Shove her off? No, they've come too far for that. Hang by his sides? It's tempting, but he needs this. He actually needs this, and honestly? She's the best one to comfort him, perhaps the only one he would actually accept in this way, too.
So after inhaling sharply, and exhaling shakily, Katsuki's fingers curl and tighten around Uraraka's smaller frame and grip tightly into her clothes. His teeth grit together, eyes squeezed shut. The stupid, stubborn, assholeish side of him wants to deny that he needs help - he can stand on his own just fine - but that'd be a lie. Or at least a half truth...and Katsuki hates to lie. He does need help. He does need to be saved.
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Date: 2024-09-09 03:03 am (UTC)He genuinely can't comprehend why they don't all hate him for it, because he clearly hates himself. So moves towards him again...and hugs him. She just wraps her arms around him and holds him close to let him know.
"None of us hate you, Bakugou-kun. Of course we don't. We just want to help you be able to stand back up again. You can rely on us. You can rely on me. Please...please don't keep these feelings inside. They'll just tear you up." Her own voice is breaking a bit.
"I don't want to lose you."
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Date: 2024-09-13 11:29 pm (UTC)Katsuki is strong, he's brave and he's also...just a kid.
He's just a kid, and he got scared. He got scared and he hates that. He hates how he was forced to realize just how dangerous he is. How dangerous his quirk can be - the same one that he's so unbelievably proud of, that has helped him time and time again...the quirk that's aided him to coming so, so close to achieving his dreams. The same quirk that saved his Hero - the same one he helped end. That realization was so profound, and so horrifying, that he's just at a loss for how to even vocalize it. How anyone could look at him and still have anything positive to say. He would understand if they were upset, scared, if they blamed him even a little. He should have been better, he should have been stronger, but he wasn't. He wasn't and he deserves to be blamed. He is not, should not, be above consequence.
"Why--" the words die in his throat. The moment Uraraka holds him, he freezes up and goes quiet, arms raising up on reflex, but stopping, hesitating, unsure of what action to take. Shove her off? No, they've come too far for that. Hang by his sides? It's tempting, but he needs this. He actually needs this, and honestly? She's the best one to comfort him, perhaps the only one he would actually accept in this way, too.
So after inhaling sharply, and exhaling shakily, Katsuki's fingers curl and tighten around Uraraka's smaller frame and grip tightly into her clothes. His teeth grit together, eyes squeezed shut. The stupid, stubborn, assholeish side of him wants to deny that he needs help - he can stand on his own just fine - but that'd be a lie. Or at least a half truth...and Katsuki hates to lie. He does need help. He does need to be saved.
Not by a Hero, but by a friend he trusts.